Kiss on the cheek

My heart is breaking
I hate you so much
Why do I love you?
I can't stand your touch

Your lips are like ice
I shiver within
You make me feel cold
Is this feeling a sin?

I hate everything about you
But why can't I leave?
You are holding me back
And you make me believe

That you are my god
The one I must give myself to
I must do as you say
And forever be true

But I must be strong
And push you away
I'm taking a risk
If longer I stay

I'm scared you will kill me
You may dig my grave
You have already scarred me
But no I must be brave

I say to your face
"I hate you so much"
Then you kiss me on the cheek
And swing me a punch

I run for my life
Knowing if I stay I will die
But you are much faster
And you scream to me "you lied"

I try as hard as I can
To be freed from your grip
I tell you I'm sorry
And that it was only a trick

You stop and look up
At my face now covered in blood
You kiss me on the cheek
And say "I'll see you in hell"

And without another word
You bash me once more
My head is spinning fast
As I fall to the floor

My life spins before me
"NOT NOW!" I scream
This is not how my life should end
And it was all because you were mean

I scream my last words
In anguish and fear
"How could you? I hate you"
And you shed a single tear

But you do not pause any longer
You intentions are strong
You continue to hurt me
Doesn't it feel wrong?

Suddenly I'm watching
From the corner of the room
Your yelling at me
Screaming "Why so soon"

Your crying harder then ever
As you fall to a heap
But then you do something unexpected
As you grab the knife from the kitchen sink

You cut yourself
over and over again
Your wrists and your chest
"NO NO STOP" I plead

But you cannot hear me
So I start to cry
I am just a ghost
"But please don't die"

Your growing weak
You won't live for much longer
You grab hold of my hand
And you suddenly feel stronger

You whisper to me
"I love you my dear
I'm sorry our lives
Have ended like this

I was scared you would leave
I didn't want you to go
I wanted you to stay with me
I wanted our love to grow"

As you say your last words
You gently kiss me on the cheek
And you lie down beside me
You are just to weak

Suddenly everything is quite
It's just our 2 dead bodies
Lying side by side
Your hand still linked with mine

I know you didn't mean to hurt me
I can forgive you once more
I love you forever
Now lets spread out wings and soar

*I have been working on this poem for months.... I don't know how I came up with this poem cause I don't often write things like this.... so any comments on it are welcome good or bad I wanna know what you think of it!