About me

To close my eyes is to dream,
and dreaming closes in,
Waking up again,
My world begins to spin.
Putting on the make-up,
Putting on the mask.
Gripping thoughts of happiness,
While given another task.
Walking through these halls,
Like walking a lonely road.
I never saw the light,
Never had time to unfold.
Tuning out talkers wishing it would end,
closing my eyes tight,
people worry and try to recommend.
Recommend help to me,
that I don't care to see.
Help is not what I need,
Just let it flow, Let it bleed.
People keep on talking about how "crazy" I must be,
But I know something they don't know..Something about me.
On the way home I'm silent,
Parents worrying that I am too defiant.
Turn up the music,
drop down to the floor,
screaming cutting images,
I cant take this anymore.
An addiction has over come me,
has led to darkness shrine.
Don't worry dear ill be emotionly sober in no time.
Closing my eyes hurts, as does trying to be perfect enough for them.
Emotions scatter, and my heart has a damaged stem.
Blankly gone I look into your eyes tonight.
Walking away doesn't hurt me, Ive decided tonight is my night.