My smile was once flawless, never would you doubt that it was anything but real
My laughter rang out so loud and clear, so full of life, yet so fake
But cracks are beginning to show in my once perfect mask
These emerald green eyes of mine are slowly fading to black
Such sorrowful tears now fill my eyes, forever trying to escape
And sadness once hidden behind curtains are starting to open letting the world in
My bright smile, which once was so radiant and shining
Now begins to curl at the edges, taking even more strength to hide
But I must force myself smile even bigger than before
I always stood tall, trying to make the world believe that I was confident and strong
Now my shoulders are hunched, my head hung low and my body weak
My power to pretend is disappearing, my body is growing heavy and hard to hold up
This depression eats me alive, consuming my body and taking over my mind
My soul darkens as it turns from pure white to the darkest shade of black
As I lose more and more control my mask continues to crack
Fragments of my disguise break away smashing to the ground
Beneath my decaying flesh is exposed, so grey has it become
From all the years of being hidden away in the darkness
Although my body is still alive inside I’m completely dead
As more of my body is revealed you can see the maggots crawling
These insects that inhibit my body are eating me alive
I fear what the world will think once my mask is completely gone
When the true me is uncovered for everyone to judge
And they’ll be able to see the weak, depressed, scared girl that I am
I’ll be forced to see this person I tried so hard to hide away for so many years
What I truly fear is my own judgment of myself once I’m exposed
But most of all I fear what I’ll do when I see this person I hate so much
