Pretending

I was not aloud to fear this
i was not to cry
i was meant to suffer alone
keep my emotions inside

i was meant to keep you happy
while sadness attacked my soul
and now i am all alone
where sadness is my home

i have no happiness
no feeling of love
just some darkness
that hovers above

i was meant to love you
take care of you every day
never able to change any thing
never being able to say

it was hard to care for you it was hard to hide who i was it was hard to keep away my sadness but the hardest was pretending to love you.