When you were away

When you were away
I let myself go
I don’t know why
But it wasn't my call

I knew it was time
I knew it would hurt
I cant take the pain away
Each and everyday

I thought it was right
To leave you behind
Since you don’t show your love
I want to fly away high above

I took a knife
And scarred my face
I let it bleed
To my expense

I felt my skin turn pale
I let it all flow out
I watched the blood spill on the floor
As it poured farther out my door

I fell to my knees
Weak and confused
I crawled to the phone
Shrieking for my life

I dialed 9 11
Just as my arm turned numb
I fell to the floor
As everything turned black

I opened my eyes
As I felt around me
Mom? Dad?
“Where am I?” I cried out

I hear voices
I see faces
But I’m still in shock and pain
As I felt my blood flow back into my veins

“I love you sweetheart,” “It’s gonna be ok….”
I heard my moms soft voice say
“Don’t be afraid,”
“This will all soon go away!”

How can this be
I wanted to die
I was so close
But I guess it just wasn’t my time

Why did it happen
How am I here
Why couldn’t I just leave
So I’ll be away from all my fear

9 months and 4 weeks later
I touch my scar
The one that almost took my life away
Farther then far

I still have pain
From that very day
Everything’s so vivid
As I almost walked away from this place

Regret is nothing special
But certainly the truth
I’ll regret that day forever
Because now I see that my life was good

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This is NOT a true story. . . .
but it took time to write. . . . . .
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