Mommy (suicide note)

I'm sorry mommy
It's something I had to do
Take my life
I couldn't do this to you
You don't deserve
My broken, empty soul
My heart now, Is just so cold
Oh mommy
I couldn't do it...
Make the sadness go away
We'll never know
If I could've been happy one day
I'm weeping as I write this
And my heart fills with pain
I can't take living everyday
Just the same
I know I'm a bad person
Because I'm too weak
I just can't find
The happiness and love I seek
Oh mommy
You'll hate me
When you find out what he did
I wished I could tell you
But I locked it all inside
Away from it, I hid
I remember crying, Christmas eve
All because of my shame
And as I grew older
It all turned to blame
This family is broken
Even if you don't see
The only reason its broken
Is all because of me
By the time you read this
I shall be gone
Shattered by my pain
So I can leave you with none