Stupidly

At that time I didn't think you'd,
Be a memory,
But now boy I'm just mad at,
What you did to me

I loved you,
You said you loved me,
But honestly, truthfully,
Did you really?

I had a gut feeling,
That something was wrong,
That you were cheating,
Someone else had come along

You told me it was nothing,
That I was paranoid,
I wanted just to make the subject,
One you couldn't avoid

The moment came for you to say
The words that I did dread,
The ones I had pictured you saying,
In the back of my head

"It's over" you told me,
"I'm sorry you're hurt"
"It's cause of the distance,
It's just how it has to be"

I cried my tears,
They filled the room,
Then was an uncontrollable,
Feeling of gloom

How could you do that,
To someone you loved?
Cut through me like lightning,
From the heavens above

Six months it took me,
To get over the pain
And I promised myself,
"Never again"

Then quite suddenly,
Out of the blue,
I had an email,
It was from you!

I sat down to read it,
And my heart leaped,
Forgetting all about,
The promise, so far, kept

But then a thought suddenly,
Rushed through my head,
What about all,
Those tears I had shed?

After two weeks,
I could feel it again,
The love coming back,
That I had felt back then

I tried to stop myself,
I tried to hate,
Tried to tell myself,
You weren't worth the wait

Then suddenly we were,
Going back out,
I was so happy,
I wanted to shout

But then I felt all,
The shock from my friends,
That I was letting myself in,
For all this again

I was stupid and I,
Didn't listen to them,
Who were they to tell me,
From this what might stem?

But then a week later,
You said like before,
"We need to talk"
And I felt like screaming "Please, no more!"

You said it again,
Just as I thought,
"Rach I really think we ought,
To call it a day. I'm sorry"

This time I cried,
But not very long,
I wasn't depressed,
And I'm coming back strong

Now I wonder why,
I risked,
Losing my best friends,
For a relationship that was soon gonna end
Stupidly