Rocking back and forth
trying to realize what Ive done
do i want to do more damage to myself...
i dont know if he cares...
has he seen the tears i cried for him?
does he hear my silent cries...
sometimes at night i hold my pillow tight
and take a long walk down memorial lane
(w my forsaken tears dripping from my eyes)
of when i saw his smile and his face
once my hero and my savior
now my long lost love
secretively I'm in depression but towards the world i try to fake the smile that faces every day..
in fear of seeing him with someone else pull myself together and head towards the place where i see him wiping my eyes glancing away pushing past through the doors I'm running away once again....
i hurt him i lost him i love him i need him...
I'm sorry...
