Fearing tears

You hate me this i know is true. you tell me i am a freak a mere screw up through time. your eyes judge me and maybe wish i were dead. well guess what i hate you too, i don\'t wish you dead but a coma would do! this rage i feel was caged for years,i was afraid if i felt it i would hurt someone, never realizing by not feeling them i only hurt. you claim to be a grandmother a name you never earned. though there are names better suited for you. go a head tell me to shut up, i am only a foolish girl after all. open your eyes and see how i have cried a thousand times, only wanting your love, and a thousand times i have died when you say no! go a head now say what you like, i no longer fear you and no longer do i fight these tears.