Suddenly it burns to smile,
I havent felt this way in a quite awhile,
Not since 4th grade when everything started going crazy,
When I got yelled at and beat because he was saying I was lazy.
I still have the scars to bring back the memories,
Of being kicked when I was down, being left to bleed.
I still have the cast from when he broke my arm,
When he shoved me up against the wall yet told the nurse that it was my fault I was harmed.
I remember crying myself to sleep at night,
Waiting under the covers in fright.
Hearing his heavy footsteps, once again drunk,
Beating at my doorknob to try to get it unlocked.
He threw shoes and he threw bricks, whatever he could find,
I just dont get it Im his own flesh and blood was he out of his mind?
But daddy, why wont you see?
I'll always say I love you, no matter how much you hurt me.
