Virtually normal

As i tried to look back and decipher
what might have caused me to hinder
panic has confused & baffled
with pre-adult ambiguity

i have had this disorder at a far
deeper level of my emotion
to be sure of it i had to keep it
i became a stranger to my...own self

Nobody knew about the subterfuge
Of my whole being but me
it's time to real the real me
it's time ... it's time

I'm a victim without a choice
but to accept the fact that i will always
love the same sex cause I'm virtually normal
as others like me would claim i am me help me be me

~~> i wrote this when i was 17 yrs. old, it has something to do about homos, it is a poem but now it is already a song, which my band and i used to fill a tune we had in mind.