Finally Had That Smile

For my little back stabbing friend. I know i have sometimes been mean to you but you have no right to hurt me this bad.

I've finally got a smile,
After all these months of waiting,
He finally came along,
And he stopped my heart from breaking,

He pieced me together,
He took his hand in mine,
And for once i wasn't lying,
When I said I was fine,

But you must have seen my happiness,
And hated me for it,
What other reason is there for this?
Why be such a b.i.t.c.h.?

He stopped fancying you,
Now you want him to again,
Why else would you act like this?
Why try to put me through pain?

You're trying so hard,
With him whenever you can,
You're so damn obvious,
Why didn't you make a subtle plan?

I’m afraid he’s gonna fall for you,
Go back to liking you like before,
I’m afraid he’ll take his love,
And give it to you; w.h.o.r.e.,

And then you won’t want it,
You’ll have gotten what you need,
Someone loving you again,
Is pain on what you feed?

He’s the best thing that’s happened to me,
No more fresh cuts on my wrist,
He took me from depression,
And brought me to this,

I was far from my blade,
But now it is in sight,
I don’t want to loose him, can’t you see?
If I go back, I won’t win my fight,

I know that he loves me,
But what if he starts fancying you?
He’ll leave me, forever,
What the hell am I supposed to do?

I sure can’t hit you,
As much as I’d like,
I know everyone would enjoy it,
They love it when people fight,

I can’t threaten you,
You know i wouldn't do a thing,
I want to hurt you so bad,
Cause you are stealing my wings,

Bringing me back down,
From my heaven so far above,
Trying to take my boyfriend,
So I no longer have his love,

I’m sure you would deny it,
But it is plain for all to see,
You’re trying to take away,
The one person that likes me for me,

I love him so much; always have,
And I love him so much still,
Please don’t take him away from me,
Please don’t let this be god’s will,

What happens will happen,
No matter what I say,
But please think of my past hurt,
Each and every day,

The days you try to take him,
The days you make yourself there,
Think about how he changed me,
How my heart is no longer bare,

We once were such great friends,
But he is a better one than you’ll ever be,
He don’t b.i.t.c.h. or hurt this girl,
He just cares about me,

It would hurt me so much,
To see our love crush and die,
You know that every single night,
I’d sit alone and cry,

My friends would pick up the pieces,
They’d be the ones to hold me tight,
But I’d still sit there and long for him,
While I lie in bed at night,

Please will you just think about?
What you’re trying to do,
See what you’re trying to take from me,
Think about him and his glue,

About how he used it to fix me,
To make me happy and whole,
Don’t take this love away from me,
Please tell me this isn't your goal,

But if you do just tell him,
That I love him and will always,
Tell him that I’ll always care about him,
And think about him on lonely days,

Tell him, if I loose him,
That I will always be his friend,
My love and my care for him,
Is just too strong to end,

I finally had that smile,
After all my months of waiting,
Tell him he’s the one, who came along,
And stopped my heart from breaking.

*All votes and comments greatly appreciated as always.*