My Suicide Prayer..

Sometimes I just sit here,
And to you oh Lord I'd pray.
I ask you to take my pain,
To just take this life away.

I don't know if you really exist,
I'm not so sure I believe,
But I still do pray to you and hope,
My prayers you might receive.

I dunno if you're listening,
I'm quite sure you're busy,
But please, do spare some time,
To listen to this broken child; Me.

"Oh dear Lord, I beg of you,
To please let me end my life today,
Please let me leave this time,
Cuz I wish do not wish to stay.

Please Lord, I've tried many times,
Each Time.. I'd just sadly fail.
Please let me succeed this time,
Let me open my wings and take sail.

Thank you Lord, I end my prayer,
I wish for no tomorrow again,
Please, do grant this one wish,
And let me end my pain."

I ended my prayer, and sat here.
I stared at my blood-stained knife.
I picked it up, and sliced in deep,
Hoping to end this worthless life.

-Not good, Wrote it last night, was upset sorry.