I could be dying

My body is shaking,
My stomach throbbing away,
My mind is going crazy,
Wondering if I’ll live another day.

I know I showed no signs
of the fact I wanted to die,
I just told my friends I was fine,
I should have said a proper goodbye.

Yes I guess I should have,
but I just found out,
the most upsetting thing ever
That puts my happiness in doubt.

Jealousy is all that happened,
My life is now sedate,
all because of my own envy
My life is in the hands of fate.

“I got moved to most advanced in hip hop,”
that is all she said,
And that envy made me take those pills
Soon I could end up dead.

But of course it was not her fault,
Just because she is a better dancer,
I didn’t even want to do that class,
I guess jealousy is a deadly cancer.

I have tried to overdose. before
and I guess I’m still alive,
but at the moment I’m wondering,
if I’ll really survive.

Because now I feel stupid,
I wasn’t sad, not even crying,
But I overreacted,
I seriously could be dying!

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Ok if you are reading this, i need to tell you something. Yes, I tried to kill myself because my friend got in the class and i didn't. But I wrote this 2 days before i found out i was being changed to the advanced class. Now I feel so dumb about nearly losing myself for no reason.
People please don't try to kill yourself, stuff changes so quickly and things could be great in a few days.
Don't give up.

Thank you.