I sat here listening to the sound of my life ready to spill and break
I sat here numb ready to fall Tired of living a nightmare knowing i could never wake
i sat here scared of my intention of letting go...and never turning back
i sat here feeling the tears slip wondering if my heart truly is empty with black
I sat there in front of that bottle of pills and that razor so sharp so cold
I sat there facing reality to that I'm not strong enough to stand up and have my story told
i sat there with shaking hands ready to take my last breath
But then i remembered you and i knew i couldn't leave with out saying good bye before my "sudden"death
So i sat there with the phone in my hands Your voice breaking scared and confused
You didn't say good bye You would not let me go Losing me you refused
i sat there trembling for how much you care For that you would not let me die
I threw the bottle The razor at my reflection and fell to my knees For all i could do was surrender and cry
Now i sit here writing this poem Thanking you for assuring me not to yet leave That you will help my broken soul mend
You've been saving me When they've been killing me So now i sit here knowing you'll always be my best friend
