No bLood

I can't shake this feeling of emptiness
It forever sleeps in my heart and awakens every now and then
When it does no one can understand how I am feeling
My soul cries for something more than I've got
Some type of happiness
Something I can never grasp
A feeling of depression
When will it leave
It's just another day like the last
Feels like the worlds spinning around in circles
Repeating all the pain
Will I ever break free
Or will it suffocate me forever more
It's so hard to keep pushing on when no one seems to care or understand
I wonder can this longing end
Will I ever feel I'm fitting in
I know I'm supposed to stand out
But I just want a sense of belonging
Afraid to be me in case someone disaproves
I know I shouldn't care what others think
Most of the time I don't
But other times I can't help it
My head is spinning
My soul seems to be winning
I don't want this pain anymore
Don't want to turn to self-harm but it seems to be the only way
I can't, not tonight, I'll see my friends tomorrow
They'll notice
I'll try and pull through without it
I know I can do it
I've done it before
No blood tonight, no blood
I can do it, I can
This feeling will leave but no blood will