A World Away (Part Four)

I don’t speak to anyone anymore.
Except myself, in my head.
Not since I decided that my love
My savior, must be dead.

Sometimes I scream
And I don’t stop for days
Well the doctors call it hours
I don’t believe what he says

They tell me it’s been two years
Inside these white walls
In all that time I’ve had no post
No visitors and no calls

But when you have no friends
And no family that’s what you get
And people who knew you, but found out
They then pretend we never met.

I don’t dream of you anymore
I can’t see your eyes either now
But even through all this, inside
I know I still love you somehow

And I told them when I came
You were my only cure
The first time I went a little mad
You entered, and made me pure

But since you’re dead
I know I’ll be here a while
I can’t even remember the last time
My lips had the energy to smile

I lie in my soft bed
Just staring at all the white
It’s easy now, so easy
The drugs delude me to believe it’s alright

Cos that one day they let me out
Because they thought I was OK,
I slit my wrists and came back
Since then, I haven’t had anything to say.

The drugs make it easy
But without them, in my head
I just want to be with you
But problem is, you’re dead

So if they want me alive
Then I will live in this robot state
Because otherwise I simply have to die
Because it drives me crazy, making you wait.

© Copyright Sharon Ardern 2005