To Mummy

Mummy, I'm sorry
I know I've caused you so much pain
When I ignore you it tears you apart
And when we fight I see that look in your eyes
It kills me but I just don't give up
I told you I love you
I tried to make it better
You threw it straight back in my face
You said it was just a lie
Mummy what you said, it killed me
It felt as if a thousand knives were stabbing into my heart
It made me want to die
I wanted to yell and scream
I wanted to tell you no
Mummy, did you really mean it?
Mummy I'm scared
Do you really believe that I hate you?
Do you? Mummy do you?
I'm so sorry you got stuck with me as your daughter
A horrible disgrace
I'm sorry I am me
I'm sorry I can't be what you want me to be
I would rather die than live like this
I'm so sick of crying
Mummy, I wish you would wipe away my tears
But you don't know they escape my eyes
Mum, I wish I could turn to you like my best friend
Mummy, I would die for you
Without you my life isn't worth living
Mummy, I'm sorry
I wish you could understand
Understand how much I wish I could change
Wish I could be someone else
Someone you're not ashamed of
Someone to be proud of
If I could change mum
I would
But I'm sorry this is me
And I love you so much

**I told my mum I loved her at the end of a text message and she said no you don't, only when you want something... it killed me cause my mum is always there for me and I love her so much. Please rate and comment**