I work so hard to avoid you
Now that you know how I feel
But the truth is, I can't live without you
All this doesn't seem real
I trusted everyone
With my deepest, darkest fear
But now that trust has been betrayed
Its seems that the end is near
I sat there watching that fateful day
When she came and told what took place
My mouth was wide open in horror
I had gone beet red in the face
I had even started crying
But I laughed to cover my tears
Never have I cried for such a reason
In any of my eleven years
My friends were there to comfort me
But I couldn't hear them through my silent screams
I didn't know what was happening
I was coming apart at the seams
They let me cry right then and there
And one even let me take out my anger on her arm
But it still did no good for me
This event has caused me dreadful harm
I ran from the bleachers
As soon as I was set free
I ran right past you sitting there
Not knowing what you did to me
I tried to hold back my tears
For the rest of that dreadful day
But it seemed impossible
No one heard me say:
"What the hell has happened to me?
I never felt this way before.
I don't want this to be my undoing.
I don't want to love you anymore."
But it seems since that dreadful day
I still can't get you out of my head
I have committed myself to cutting
I often wish that I was dead
I want to find out who told him
So I can wring her scrawny neck
I want to beat the crap out of her
I want her to see that she made me a wreck
I bled for no reason
And as I stared in wonder at the crimson finger
I cried once again, to my despair
It seems that feelings for you still linger
There is a moral of the story
And it really is quite severe
'Don't tell secrets entrusted to you by friends
If you really hold them dear'
Because I'm serious this time
I really want to die
I don't want to just sit there and think about it
I don't just want to cry
But I'll hold back until you see
That I really did care
You won't realize how much I cared for you
Until I'm not there
**true story. i have a crush on this dude, and i entrusted people with my secret, and someone told. I can't trust anyone anymore**
