My happiness cant be won

Why is life so hard?
every time i think I'm doing something right
it turns out to be wrong
i want all my pain to be gone

every time i try to help someone
i get it thrown back in my face
i don't belong in this place

I'm always the one left out of crowds
i stand up
and try to be friendly and loud
but i just get knocked back down

i want to be recognized
i want to have fun
but i guess my happiness
just cant be won