Killing Me

This is going to kill me
From the inside out
Its going to tear my soul
Make me scream cry and pout

When things are held together
By stupid lies
What is there to say
I'm the only one who cries

I have to lie to myself
Lie to you
Just to keep going
So we are together to say I do

I'm never going to be me
Never again the same
These lies will rip me apart
They are the one's to blame

You'll believe the words of another
Before you consider mine
So I must lie
Just to keep this all in line

Ive never done the things
That you think of me
I'm telling the truth to you
But you just don't want to see

When every things against me
And all I can do is cry
I sit here talking to you
And lie and lie and lie

You said you want the truth
But things just don't fit together
So you will believe the lies
I'll be able to tell the truth never

I'll never again smile
When all I can do is cry
I will never again be happy
When I have to lie

So now that you've heard
The words that will keep us a couple
I will shut up about everything
Give you no trouble

But every time you look at me
See whats in my eyes
You'll be able to see it all
All my silent cries

I'll never look into the mirror
And see who I used to be
She will wash away
So you will never again see

When there is no hope
Of a happy tomorrow
I know i will live life
In an eternal sorrow

The little strand of hope
That keeps me hold on
Is going to break soon
And this will all be gone

*My soul will eternally rest in the lake of deception. Until it finally suffocates me with all of its pain. Only then will I be able to see all of this washing down the drain, and knowing I'm free, a smile will once again cross my face.*