Sadness Is Mine

You do not now pain like I do
Couldn’t comprehend my fears
You cannot walk in my shoes
No one can stop my flow of tears

I used cry for no reason some nights
And other times because of my life
I scream out for someone to save me
And then cut myself with a knife

I watch my blood trickle steadily
Laughing that I have done it again
Like a crazy person trapped in hell
Trying to escape the hurt and pain

Imagine being me for one day
I know that you couldn’t take it
And you wonder why I am like this
Why I don’t fight hard to make it

Happiness has never been mine
For sadness is what I was dealt
I tried at first to break the chain
Not understanding the way I felt

I craved to be normal for once
Wanting the tears to stop leaking
I tried to chase constant dreams
Find the love that I was seeking

Then one day without warning
My soul froze and my heart died
I realized this was my destiny
And since that day I haven’t cried

Death is racing towards me
I cannot wait to feel its embrace
I want this nightmare to be over
For I was never happy in this place