Never Be

Why does everything remind me of you?
I thought I had finished with the memories of the past
But your still deep in the back of my heart
Hiding away
When I get to close to places that we went to
and the people that you know
It kills me cause I can't let go
I have my boyfriend
You have your girlfriend
Sometimes I wonder if it wasn't for them would we be?
But then I remember all the hurt you caused me
All the pain you put me through
Saying that you loved me
Though it was never true
Playing me
Using me
I can never let that go
But deep down somehow I think that if we ever came across each other
Single again
I would let you back into my life
I'd let you win
Sometimes I wonder
Am I better than her
You cheated on her with me
Little did I know
You told me you were single
It wouldn't hurt anyone
Then 2 days later I found out the truth
It tore me up inside
Now I'd have to lie for you
For the sake of her happiness
I hated you so much
And I still do
You call me a s l u t
You call me a w h o r e
I am worthless to you
You just loved to watch me fall
I wonder do you ever think
About the fun we had
It's funny you know
I talk about the good times
As if that's all there were
But there were more bad than good
You taught me how to hate myself
I was never good enough
You taught me how to cut
Now I can not stop
You killed my soul
Left me alone to bleed
To die
You used me cause I put out
You never really loved me
Everything you said was lies
You were always drunk and depressed
I think I caught it off you
Though I say I hate you
and I don't really care
Every time I see I fall a little further
The truth is I loved you with all my heart
And somewhere deep inside off me
Somewhere no one can see
The truth is I still have feelings for you
But we will never be

**About this guy I was in love with, I thought I was totally over him but the things he says to me hurt real bad, I was so in love with him and he never really cared. I first cut while I had these feelings for him. I'm sorry that its so long but since you have read it please can you vote and comment!!**