Never will i reminisce

Why do I left this happen;
Let you do this to me?
My heart is broken once more,
And no-one will let me be.
I’ll get by at my own pace,
Eventually these tears will fade,
I wonder how I got like this,
You thought I had it made.
But the truth is more painful,
What I go through everyday,
This hurt is everlasting,
And it will only end one way.
The scars I cover are now showing,
As I create a slit so deep,
What I was before I met you,
Is something I shall keep.
I cant control this anymore,
But I cant leave it unspoken,
I try to hide it, but I fail,
For my heart lays frail and broken.
My spirit is still there on earth,
Of which I hated with all my might,
But now I know deep down,
Everything will be alright.
If I escape the world I live in,
To a better place to stay,
I shall never forget you,
In my heart everyday.
So as my blood runs from me,
My skin is turning blue,
I think of all the times we shared,
And finally, its through.
I will no longer suffer my pain,
Letting go of what was wrong,
I see you all one by one,
And finally, Ive gone.
If yoyou'vever loved someone,
You will understand what I mean,
That hurt that stays with you,
But is nowhere to be seen.
I look back, my scars reveal so much,
Your final words shall stay,
What you said to me before I went,
Means that I’ll be ok,
Just because I’m not here,
Doesn't mean i never think of you,
In fact I never leave your side,
Then I realize, we were true.
I never let you go, the only one,
Because I believed in this,
I loved you so much more than others,
Never will I reminisce.