My last prayer

Forgive me father
For i have sinned
I can no longer breathe
The lovely air that you bring

My life is useless
I feel used
No longer hiding
The fact that I'm abused

My parents beat me
With that hard leather belt
No one can understand
The pain that Ive felt

I chose tonight
To finally end my life
With that shinny object
That is now called a knife

I can understand
If I'm not going to heaven
Because I have
Done that horrible sin

My wrists bleeding
I want to let them know
That underneath the happiness
My scars can finally show

They don't know
That I am such a mess
But please when I'm gone
Their lovely souls you shall bless

Tell my sister
That she is my only friend
But mommy and daddy
Made me decide its my time to end

Don't make her worry
And make her keep strong
And please keep her
On this planet for long

Don't make her lost
And make her suffer
I hope my decision to leave
Won't make her life tougher

As i lay beside my blade
Make my life slowly fade
And if i wake before i die
I will always question you why

Don't make me
Come back and live
Because i have nothing
Left to give

I am my only problem
And slayer
Just please respond
To my very last prayer