Never Understand

I don’t think you’ll ever
Truly understand
How much you’ve messed my life up
And made me who I am

To take my soul
And rip it apart
Take all the innocence
Out of my heart

You had quite the nerve
To think you were boss
Was all you gained?
Worth the loss

All I wanted
Was for you to go
To leave me alone
Cause no means no.

You knew what your goal was
Right from the start
Now I’m left with a shattered soul
And a broken heart

It wouldn’t of helped
If I shouted and screamed
So I stayed quiet
Hoping to wake up from this dream

Whether I wanted to or not
I always agreed
Just to help you complete
This same old deed

It cannot be a dream
I’ve been shaken awake
I still wish I could reverse
This very stupid mistake

You acted as if
I had a choice
But my words were silent
As if I had no voice

My tears fell to the floor
One by one
Making not one sound
I wanted to run!

To get away
From all this pain
Because of you my hopes and dreams
Went down the drain

You’ve wrecked my relationships
With everyone else
Because when you did this
You thought only of yourself.

Silent and scared,
I am breathless
I want to escape,
But I am helpless

The look in your eyes
Shot my mind
You were never quite satisfied
And I was hard to find

When I thought that
I was finally free
You always seemed to
Creep up on me

Tears continuously
Stream down my face
Memories like this
Will never be replaced

And now that you
Are finally satisfied
You’ve touched apart of me
Deep inside

Because of you
I’ll never be the same
It was all one big joke to you
But it’s not a game…