A Left Turn Off the Track

I thought I opened and closed that door a long time ago
But somehow I knew, that in the back of my mind
The feelings were still there, captured in time
I lost the sense of wonder, so now I'm trying to find

The blood in my veins is far below zero
Those little things that were once iced over
Are caught in memory as I grow colder
The shapes of mystery I look back at over my shoulder

I don't make sense, I can't possibly know
All the things I thought I did, all the notes I read
My heart was left torn and confused with what you said
I swore it would be the last time that you'd be in my head

But you're there again, still standing so beautiful
The breeze from the wind encloses around my body
Quickly, though, it sends me back to reality
And I just wish this one time you could have promised me

But I know that's not the case in the long run
It will be broken like always, another open sore
Like a tight wire stripped right to its core
I know this time fore sure, however, I'm definitely closing your door.