Overflowing pain

So much pain
rushing through me
overtaking me
controlling me

so much hurt, lies and tears
so much misery and hidden fears

so much everything
too much to bare
so much nothing
why do i care?

so much confusion
i question everything i know
so much hate
leaves no room to grow

mixed feelings filled inside
filled with anger, pain and pride
phoney apologies and fake smiles
happy thoughts left on unwritten piles

my heart cries out
as i sit here in pain
why do i bother?
theres nothing to gain

whats the point
when pains overflowing
theres no me anymore
inside I've stopped growing

the answer was somewhere
somewhere inside of me
but now its lost
lost in pain and misery

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