_______ I’m sorry, please don’t blame yourself for what I have done
I know at times you’ve thought that it was your fault for my depression
That I hung around you too much when you were in a bad way
I know you think you haven’t been there for me as much as you should have
But you’ve been there and helped me more than you can ever know
For so long you kept me from ending it all and I tried my best to stop you too
And all those sweet things you said to me always made me blush
No ones ever complimented me like you and thought all these things you saw in me
So please never think it’s your fault for my cowardly decision
And I’m sorry for giving up, I never deserved a friend such as you
I love you with all my heart I could never ask for a better bestfriend
_______ you’re like a sister to me, you’ve given me so much advice
I know it hurt you to see me like that, I know I hurt all of you
Time and time again you’ve been right there and listened to me
Never once did you refuse to listen and help me in anyway you could
All the times I admitted to cutting again you never got angry, not once
All the times I failed to quit or try and get better you always stuck by me
But in with all the bad conversations we’d have some great talks
You’d have me laughing till I was crying with the things we talked about
I love you with all my heart I could never ask for a better sister
______ your one of the sweetest and kindest people I have ever meet
You showed me what it was like to be loved and cared about
I know you could never understand how I could see all those bad things in me
Because it seemed like all you could see in me was good
You could see this great person that I was blind to seeing
And you’d constantly try and convince me of what it was you saw in me
Even when I refused to believe it you wouldn’t just give up
I’m sorry for when I completely lost it while talking to you
It was the first time you’d seen me like that because I always tried to hide it
And trust me I know I hurt you so much with my talk of giving up and death
If I could I’d take back that night but I can’t and for the rest of my life I have to live knowing the pain I put you through and how much I scared you
I love you with all my heart I could never ask for a better boyfriend
I don’t really know why I wrote this I just started typing and this is what I was left with, I guess it’s kind of what I might right in a suicide letter, I guess I just needed to get out what I feel for these great people in my life even though they’ll never read it…. I don’t even really know why I posted it either….
