This poem probably doesn't make since... but tell me what you think anyway.... thanks!
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I go through the day
blocking you from thought
but when i pass you in the halls
both our eyes caught
I just want to be friends
or at least not care
but every time i glance at you
and catch you stare...
I can't help but smile
but only deep inside
i can't show how i feel
so that smile i hide
I'm only seventeen
i want to be single and carefree
and that feelings even stronger
when i catch you looking at me
it's only when i watch you
when you don't know I'm there
watching you with others
smiling as i stare
i think to myself
of the couple we could be
remembering that heart
that you carved in "our tree"
but then you spot me
and run to my side
i treat you like dirt
slashing at your pride
When you sit next to me
i act like your not there
i smile and talk to others
while you think its not fare
i don't mean to
it all just comes out so fast
but you only shrug and smile
making it a think of the past
it irritates me
when i can't tell you
i want you to go away
and find someone new
I'd hate to see you frown
knowing you never do
but all i want to say
is i dont want you
God, why couldn't it be like before
you said we would never work
now you fallow me like a lost puppy
making me look like the jerk
at first i wanted you
i wanted us to be
but when you turned me down
i opened my eyes to see
why cant you see now
that we wont ever workout
things will never happen between us
no matter how much you doubt
you are just a boy
in a man's body
every time i look at you
thats the only thing i see.
I just want to shove you aside
and pretend you don't exist
but i know, deep down inside
you, i would truly miss
I love the way you hold me
and how you kiss me goodnight.
I love it when you whisper,
my body's just right
your compliments are so sen-sear
i can't help but laugh at you
you try so hard to min me over
but only look like a fool
God, i don't want to be with you
so why are you always on my mind
and whenever i search for you
your always so easy to find
i tried to hide from you
as best as i could
but i find I'm ashamed
for not doing the things i should
How can you do that?
when i shut you out in the cold?
one moment i can't stand you,
the next, your there for me to hold.
i hate this never ending saga
of the life of you and me.
no matter how much i fight you,
i think we're meant to be.
