Ironic

There’s no use in even pretending that any guy could come and fill the void in my heart that grew when you left ………….. me and us and hopes and dreams. No one could ever come and make that void smaller……………………………. Pains of love. That’s what they’re called. And if someone could just come and make everything all better, it wouldn’t have been love that we shared. No one could change it though, we were in love. When you moved, I thought my whole world as I knew it had came crashing down around me. Smothering me with my own dreams. My world had cast me out, into the darkness of depression. That’s when it all started. The fake laughs and smiles. The saying one thing when what I really wanted to say was something completely opposite. …… the cutting. That’s what people dislike the most. The cutting. They don’t know though. They don’t see the way it lets me take out my pain and frustration. You were my way out of my pain and frustration, then you left, and became my pain and frustration. Ironic, hu?

~~Josh, I love you, I always will~~