This Blade ©

**WARNING, THIS IS SUICIDAL!**
NO PLANS ARE BEING MADE

Why is it everyday is new
even your emotions
are either new or improved
you didn't feel the same about me
or you seem to change
either they are strong or weaker
I'm beginning not to care

Why is it that I sit alone in fear
with this blade in my hand
my life has no control
so I must resort to the blade
it's the only thing near
to whisper to me softly
telling me to find comfort here

I listen very carefully
afraid of losing touch
this might be the only way
of getting what I want
I can't take this anymore
anymore pain
I feel if I live one more day
I it will never go away

Mom please never forget me
I know you think it's a sin
but should a little girl
of only sixteen
be in so much pain

Daddy please say your last goodbye
I know I wasn't the best kid and gave you no pride
but keep your head high
and say your last goodbyes
with tears down your eyes

Derek I love you baby
I always will
Do not sit here and cry
it was my only way out
I did not mean to hurt you
that was not in mind
keep on living
and learn to move on

Good bye Julie
I will always be near
I will become your guardian angel
I will watch over you for up above
in a palace far from here