My Loss

[In loving memory of my cousin Hristian]

Why did you have to leave
What made you go away
I'm never going to understand
Why you chose to die that day

Every time i think about it
Tears pour down my face
How could you do this to me
I'm lost without your grace

I guess friends are an influence
Thats why you took those drugs
But those friends don't miss you as much
I wish i could hold you give you some hugs

Every time i hear a song
That reminds me of you
I start to shake and to cry
No-one knows what to do

Every night i think of you
And the horrible way you died
With a rope around your neck
That you yourself tied

And when i visit the graveyard
And see your tombstone there
19 years of this life you had
The ground is now your lair

You're the only one i trusted
You're the only one that cared
I don't know what to do
I'm so alone and so scared

I'm such a mess without you
All i do is hide
I've prayed of the night
That I'll be by your side

And when my time comes, when i die
I wonder how people will feel?
Not like i did wen you left
I'm never going to heal

For me they'd shed a tear or two
For you Hristian i would've died
But for them to feel like i do
A life time they would've cried...

*R.I.P Hristian*

Written by Simona. S©
2004