Life behind a mask

Its pathetic, how i have to live my life behind a mask,
its pathetic, how i have to tell my friends lies,
about how i feel,
all you really have to do is look into my eyes,
and you will know that my smiles
...arnt real

i used to say how i will never breakdown and how no one could make me,
but now i think thats what i want,
i want you to ask me what i go through and how I'm doing,
and when i say fine and smile
i want you to pry it out of me,
bring me to my knees with my head in my hands, hold me, tell me that you care i wanna know that your there

i wanna feel those salty tears in my eyes again, so there not so dry,
please tell me, all i wanna here
is... its OK to cry...