These Painful words

I can’t even look at you anymore for I'm scared to show that I'm getting so weak and you don’t even know. Whenever someone says your name, I think of how things just aren’t the same. You’re so selfish to not see what you do to me. I put up with you through thick and thin, I was so stupid to let you in. I can’t believe I was so foolish to believe everything you said was true, there’s nothing more I could have done for you. So now you left me with nothing but red puffy eyes, and a wet pillow from the tears I have cried. You promised you wouldn’t hurt me, did you just close your eyes? I honestly must say you have let me down in so many ways. No longer a sister, no longer a hero, no longer me looking up to you. You took everything that meant anything to me away, and now all I have left are these words to say. I hate myself for getting so close you’re just like everyone else. You know I cared with all I had is that a crime is that so bad? I can’t take this anymore, with everyday my heart gets swore. Forgetting you wont be as easy and it was for you, just something I wont learn to do. I never wanted things to be this way, but you never herd a word I had to say. Why did you tell me all those lies, I should have seen it in your eyes. I’m lost in all my thoughts I always wanted you by my side, now I guess I can go back and hide. I’m giving up hope that you’ll finally see, that I just want you to be here with me. I wait by the phone hoping you’ll call, but it never happens you just leave me there to fall.