Why i cut

Why do you do it?
they ask me
why do you do that to yourself?
why do you treat yourself like that?
they don't understand.
they never have
and they never will
i do it to make sure I really exsist
to prove to myself that i really live
in this hell hole
that i really do have to come back
to reality when i don't
want to.
but i do it only to feel the pain
cutting is the only control that i
have in my life
everything else is out of control
so please dont ask me why i do it
i just told you.
i cut for the pain,
i cut for the control