Slow suicide

~~~~PLEASE VOTE AND COMMENT I KNOW ITS NOT THAT GOOD BUT IT WOULD MEAN A LOT TO HEAR GOOD OR BAD THINGS ABOUT IT....AND CHECK OUT SOME OF MY OTHER ONES THEY ARE A LITTLE BETTER.I WILL BE VERY HAPPY TO RETURN THE FAVOR~~~~

Deep on to this horrid day
I sit here with these lights off
and I shut the door tight,
locking myself away.

I know the world will not end
So I must end my own
I no each day is to hard for me to deal with
I am to weak to live here anymore.

I know many ways for many things
But those don't help you know how I really feel
So this darkness in me, the one I know you see
Needs to be fixed or I will fix it.

It doesn't seem fair that I say "Hey" and you get mad
I cant keep you happy
I mean I need to live to
I don't see you making me happy.

I really don't get why you are mad
What did I do?
I don't remember hurting you
Oh my god the help I need.

So here I am again
Alone in this dark,silent room
All I'm hearing is each breath I take
The pills I took make it slower.

I try to stay calm
Try not to think I'm going thought with this
I left you a letter
This is what it said:

Life is a gift for some, but for some its not. Mine felt like hell. So here I am dead on my floor. I took alot of medication. Don't worry it didn't hurt. My breaths are short and its hard to breath. My hands are as white as a ghost. So here is my good-bye to you.

GOOD-BYE

So here I go
I think my breathing stopped
With this letter you will read many different things
It may not make sense but it did to me.

Please understand at least these few words!

Death is what I wanted
So its what I got
I never gave up
So this is where I am

I do feel sorta bad
I know I will cry today
But its to late for that I already do everyday
I'm cutting now so sorry about the blood stained pages.

Anyway to late last breath is here
Inhale...
Exhale...
Now its stopped......