When i'm all alone

I sit here all alone
(wishing to know sanity)
contemplating today
(please say it was a dream)
i might have lost you already
(please say i didn't)
you're tired of waiting
(i messed up this time)
you want to move on
(i thought we'd be together)
your words explode inside my head
(please don't go)
i feel the sharp sting of tears
(i don't want to cry)
as i think about losing you
(i can't take this)
the pain can be erased
(she's stealing you away)
it bites into me
(she's tearing us apart)
the metallic taste floods my mouth
(i can't stand up)
i see the consequences of my actions
(I'm so sorry)
crimson regrets stream down my arm
(i hate her)
it's the only comfort i know
(now that you're gone)
as i slip quickly into unconsciousness
(my haven)
unfortunately, it's only temporary
(i want to stay here forever)
I'd love to stay in my dark sanctuary
(it calms me)
where nothing can hurt me
(i am not weak)
you must see.
i am not crazy.
i just need someone to understand