All Torn up Over D

"Your perfectly normal ,Your perfectly Fine"
The doctors quotes have messed up my mind,
The told me " just a couple of shots a day"
but you just cant say,
That i will be fine,
That i will be OK,
Because it made me wanna cry today,
But no i cant cry,
I have to try,
People think I'm just more messed up,
But they don't understand,
How this has torn me up,
I cant go to the movies,
Or to the museum,
Sleep over any houses,
DAMN..
Thats how i feel,
I'm falling down ,
I'm trapped in its cage,
I'm locked in this house,
And cant go out,
All i can do is try,
Try to get out,
With out being scared,

Be a big boy,
But you don't understand,
how sometimes I'm scared,
And i feel all alone,
I wanna die,
I just sit growing old,
I'll have to be brave,
And go out on my own,
Some day ill have to be without my mom,
Your probably thin-kin,
Hes so gay hes a wuss,
But like i said,
I'm all torn up,
Look At me then,
now look at me now,
I did ,
and i said wow,
I look at the pictures,
I was smiling and proud,
Now look at the picture,
all i see is a frown,
So when i tell you i cant,
And you say i must,
Look at the picture,
Its not full of trust ,
That smile's deceiving,
And it went away,
Never will it come back,
At least never to stay,
And with this story i tell,
You'll never guessed what messed it all up,
Only diabetes,
Thats all i fear,
Diabetes made not just one tear,
But nearly an ocean,
Of sadness and fears,
Diabetes give up,
I surrender,
these are my tears..