Why?

I sit in the window staring at the sky,
its so dark but i see one star twinkling,
maybe its you trying to tell me your there,
when all i want to know
is why is it now you have gone,
i realize how much you meant to me.

i wish you were here just to hug me,
and say everything will be alright,
but your not and it isn't,
i need you now more than ever before,
but this time i can't have you,
not a day goes by when i don't think of you,
and cry at least one tear.

No one understands how i really feel,
my friends try and help me
but i just keep it to myself,
and hope one day i am going to wake up,
and you'll still be here,
i no its only hope but thats all i have now,
why did you leave like that
why not just stay or say goodbye?

*if you want to comment feel free- 4months ago he died and i could really do with some help at this time*