Drowned

I closed my eyes
And dreamt off to sleep
My life flashed for me to see
And I saw the tears I had to weep

I looked back on what I did
The life that I lead
The things I went through
Why I wished I was dead

How my life was closed up and everything was dark
Why I pushed everyone away
All the pain I had to embark

The reasons the tears fell
And I let the blood run
Why I didn't stop it
I knew everything was done

Why I don't show my pain
Why I faked those happy smiles
Why I masked my true self
And why I refused those reconciles

How he came and looked into my life
Held my hand and understood
Was there to guide me through my fears
Cared just like a boyfriend should

Brought joy into my life
And looked past my flaw
Noticed all the good
Things I never saw

You told me so much
Said it would last forever
You said you could love no other

Months went by
Everything was lead happily
You uttered those words
And I lost my everything do easily

Tears rolled down my cheek
I didn't speak to anyone
I couldn't stand what I lost
My happiness was gone

I drowned in a flood of my pain
With the sorrow and all the hurt
I fell down to the ground
With my blood I lied in the dirt

They'll come and look for me
But they'll see a gurl that died
She still breathes and wonders
But you'll never find her soul even if you tried

© Copyright Christina Gomes 2005