Regretful Friendship

Friends?
What did that ever really mean
Was it always such a stupid scheme?

To get what we want and get what we need
And pretend deep inside we don't bleed

Was it always so meaningless?
A joke of course, none the less

Was it always so deceiving?
Making you feel like your happiness is leaving

Would it always leave you incomplete?
By those you cared about, gone in deceit

Would we always cry after everything?
Wondering what other pain life can bring

Would we always want to forget it all?
Every single tear that had to fall

Does it always end up in so much hatred?
And all this about friends forever, we wish we never said

Does it always end this way?
Hoping to forget every single day

Wishing we hadn't made that extra effort to stay friends
Because now just look at the way it all ends

Over stupid reasons I have to admit now
But our friendship ended and that's not a question of how

I would say I'd always forgive you you're the most important to me
But things changed so dearly, so now I ask you to let me be

I've told you my secrets, and you’ve told me yours as well
But this betrayal's too much, so just go to hell

You've ruined my life, destroyed my soul
Even though you’re the one that made me whole

You're the regretful friendship I had with me
My foolishness I now sit here and see

© Copyright Christina Gomes 2005