*This was all true, please give me your comments and votes, if you can give me any kind of support that will be greatly thankful, I know this thing will be hard for me, But I know I have to work my way through**
Everything has been going wrong
Nightmares fill my mind
I have no one to trust
No true friends
All are liars and blamers
When they end up
Doing the same
No one knows what I’m going through
Sadness and depression
Lies with in
But yet I put a smile on my face
Till lately I just lost it
On January 26 I made a cut
Hoping it would get rid of the pain
I told my best friend Sarah
What I was doing
And she goes and blabs it off to Chrissy
I feel very low
Happy Birthday mom
I cut my self
And made me fall into a hole
I try to keep it a secrets and I do very well
Knowing I will stop
Because I’m hurting my family
Deep down with in my soul
I cry in class
Cause I have no where else to go
I don’t show my self to no one
I like staying alone in the dark
Next day comes
And everyone tries to conferment me
Chrissy comes over and tells me
I’m selfish
That I don’t think of anyone except my self
I have my family to worry about and some of my friends
That I helped to the end
I started to cry
And she leaves me behind
To go hang out in her own world
I can’t stop crying
Because I knew she was right
The rest of the time
My eyes where blood shoot
And my body couldn’t stop shacking
My teacher tries to help
But yet I can't say one word
Because I don’t need her
To get in my twisted world
I tell her not to call and tell her that im fine
She decides to listen
Chrissy comes in
And tells her I have been cutting
From these two boys Shane and David
But that’s not true
Because I could care less
About those two
They call me down to the office
And made me lift up my sleeves
I beg them not to tell My mom or dad
Because they will go through more pain
But they do anyways
I lie to my dad
Saying I feel into some glass
He believes me
My mom takes me home and we have a long talk
About this hole depression thing
We went to get bandies from the store
I started feeling dizzy
Next thing I knew I was dreaming of people
That I hurt in the past
But how this would make them more
About all the people that I helped through the same thing
And never let them had a tear drop on there face
And to lace up those scares
So they don’t feel any more pain
I bang my head on the ground
Hearing my mom trying not to cry
By saying my name
Than I raise up
Knowing that I fainted
On the hard ground
My mom helps me up and walks me to the car
Telling me that I’m scaring her and how she is worried about me
I tell her everything will be all right
Because now I know how death feels
And how much people I can make hurt
I’m going to try my best
And hold on tight
And fight this thing off
Because now I know
Who my true friends are
And how many people
In my family I can trust
