I Never Expected THis

I'm home alone
Like I always am
No friends to talk to phone

So I go to the so called family room
And put in home videos of me
I sit there with my hands under my chin ready to cry

My 5 year old laughs
And my 7 year old jokes
I feel a stabbing pain in my heart that pokes

My throat starts to get soar
That soar when you want to cry
And you try to swallow hard to hide what your about to show

Your tears of sadness that you let go
So I sit there crying at the television set
Every single day I think "What happened?"

A happy little girl I once knew
Turned into a depressed cutting teenager
How could this be?
No one understands or will even think that thats me

Did I make a wrong a turn?
Did I make a bad choice?
What did I do
To deserve this poetic voice

I cannot seem to finish the puzzle of this confusing life
And answer the questions that start with "Why?"
Because no matter how hard I try no one will ever love me, or wipe the tears from my eyes
Its something I guess I'll hopefully, doubtfully survive

I didnt work very hard on it, but it will be re-submitted soon, so just give me a day and it'll be up*