Nobody knows, nobody cares I am in a great whole of sorrow and despair. I don't want to hurt them, I want to be like you " I have burned all my Bridges and don't know what to do. I am grateful for this life, don't get me wrong I just wish they would let me start over. They say they've given me chances, but all I saw was doubt. I wish I could be their daughter, to whom they want about. I'm sure they care in someway, but not the way I want. Maybe my expectations are high? Maybe I've got it all wrong. I wish they could see me. the real me inside, I wouldn't fear my family and I could hold my head high. My step-mom is great, in fact number one. I love her so much but I've done something wrong. When I first arrived, I was scared and full of doubt, so I told untrue stories and they found out. They forgave me once and then I did it again. They don't think it will ever end. It was hard growing up but I know right and wrong. I wish I could grow up and be strong. I wish I were good enough to live here for life, but when I try to be me, they just push in the knife. The harder they push, the tougher it gets. Sometimes I wish I could call it quits. I have the truth in front of me, it's as plan as can be. Since I've done nothing but lie, all they do I is put me down no matter why. They don't do it to my face, I hear them while I pace. That hurts worse than before, now the knife twists and cuts some more. it isn't their fault for my actions. As you know, I know right and wrong. I try not to let you down, but when you look at me there's just a frown. Hopefully one day, that frown will be gone, I'll know a mother who would love to smile upon......Me.
