Did i cause this?

What if i started this all,
And i did something wrong,
What if all the clues are all leaning straight towards me,

If i started this all,
Why don't i just stop it,
If i did this all,
And i just cannot stop it,

I'm getting tired and weak,
Of all the new things around,

Everything is scary,
I'm about to hit the ground,
I'm falling Falling,
And i still have not been found,

I didn't know i was so bad,
To get this F in life,
And then get punished,
And locked up in my own life,

I'm a prisoner of this war,
And this was Probroly meant to be,

I just don't understand,
If everything happens for a reason,
Then why god,
Why me?