My God, This Is All So Sad.

My god this is all so sad
I feel so pathetic, cutting AGAIN
How long will this go on?
A never ending sea of pain

My god this is all so sad
I feel so useless and confused
How many question will I ask
Why was I hurt, why do I feel used …

My god this is all so sad
I feel so dejected and I scream
Wishing, hoping, needing to believe
That this is just a dream …

My god this is all so sad
I feel so ridiculous, bleeding here
As I try and slit my wrists
Trying to bring my death near …

My god THIS IS ALL SO SAD
I feel so STUPID that no matter how I try
No matter what I do, how many attempts,
I can’t even f u c k in g die!

My god, life is so sad
And I want to get away
Make this stop, make it end
DON’T FORCE ME TO STAY.

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