Why weren't you around?

Scared of the world
As I sit down and cry
Looking out the window
as the seconds pass me by

looking round the room
as the pictures blur into one
feeling so alone
feeling like the only one

Looking at the knife
that is laid on the floor
covered in my blood
I ask myself what was that for

Feeling weak as I get dressed
walking down the stairs
putting on a smile for my mam
I no she doesn't care

going to school wearing this smile
doesnt no-one care
my screaming pain my aching smile
was it worth this everyday

People just ignoring me
as I fall down to the floor
the tears I held so long inside
I cant hold them in anymore

They all just turn to look at me
Not to help but just to stare
I felt like a circus freak
with all my scars laid bare

This is the day everyone found my secret
hidden under clothes
hidden under happy words
That I had said before

No one looks at me to even speak
they all stare at the ground
as they ask me again why I did this
but I reply "why werent you around"

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