This I Wanted You To Know!

Everywhere I seem to go
I end up with reminders of you
somehow I'm unable to forget
all the things you put me through.

Is it meant to be
that you're supposed to be on my mind
because I get thoughts of you
all the freaking time.

Whether it's hearing your last name
or hearing other people say "I miss Dave"
I think about you when I listen to music
and what do you know, the radio plays your fav.

I want to forget
I can't stand that somehow I'm unable
what is the matter with me
thinking about you has made my life unstable.

Sometimes I have flash backs
especially the time I remembering you staring straight at me
your eyes never turned away for any second
that was the time I knew you were in love with me.

It drives me nuts
hearing about the stuff you now got yourself into
it used to be just weed
but now its crack that you do.

I bet you don't even remember me
and that is what hurts me more
if only you were here right now
I could be real shore.

Yesterday I could of sworn
that I thought I seen you
but it was only my eyes playing tricks
because the person wasn't even close to looking like you.

Sometimes
I think I see you all the time
but its only images
messing with my mind.

Its almost been a year now
since I seen you last
I remember the day you left me behind
but that was in the past.

I know you wasn't perfect
but I tell you, nore was I
I understood your life was messed up
but now I hear, you probably will eventually die.

Why do you have to ruin it all
not for you but also me
don't you know how much I cared
because I was in love with thee.

Sometimes I close my eyes
and smile because I see you
it always gets me wondering
if maybe you can see me to.

I remember you
and I loved you to
but somehow my heart tells me no
because it knows I have to let you go.

Somehow I didn't think it would be this hard
to let someone I love go so far
if I seen you just for a moment
I would stop time and just hold it.

The pain of it all
still haunts me today
I still wonder how you're doing
and if maybe you're ok.

I pray to God
that maybe he'd find it in his heart
to help you be a better person
different from the start.

Maybe you would come back to me
and hug from my waist
then pick me up and twirl me around
and tell me that my waiting hasn't been a waste.

But I know it is time
to finally let you go
because my waiting has become impatient
this I wanted you to know.

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Thank-You...Jen!