Phantasm

Close my eyes tight
bury my face in my hands.
try to escape
from these cold, hard, tight bands.

i must find a place,
find my peace of mind,
leaving all i love,
leaving everything behind.

darkness falls over me
like dark, damask drapes.
i can see no more,
blindly round i traipse.

solace i search for,
something to relieve me,
to lift off this burden,
and just let me be.

hiding from it,
the huge, black phantasm,
i feel like I'm walking
tip-toe o'er a chasm.

it pushes me in,
i let out a scream
and try to wake up
from this horrible dream.

my failure insults me,
pinches and stabs.
my hair and my hands
it lashes and grabs.

let me go,
i scream and i shout.
for in this world,
things i can't live without.

bleeding and yelling,
I'm dying and screaming.
I'm crying and weeping,
wiping blood that is streaming.

I've lost it all,
all i ever knew,
and i hope and i pray
it won't happen to you.